I’ve begun to ask myself some hard questions. One of which I
cannot seem to get away from. What would I feel like if all of a sudden,
because of something that I had no control over, I found myself utterly alone?
Rejected by everyone I’ve known all
my life…
When you begin to see your hands and feet literally fall to
pieces, begin to smell the stench of the infected wound that you cannot
even feel…life begins to suddenly and drastically change. The perception you
once had of you and your life shifts, and shifts rather brutally.
When your mother and father, the people who raised you, fed
you (even if that meant they skipped meals themselves), took care of you when
you were sick, and tried to make sure they found a good husband for you, the
grandparents of your children…want nothing to do with you, literally over night.
When your brother, who you grew up with, fought with, ate
with, and played with, the one who teased you seemingly non-stop, pulled your
hair and shared your room…no longer welcomes you with open arms as sister.
When your sister, who became your closest friend, the one
you shared all your clothes with, who did your hair and let you do hers, the
one you cooked meals with, now will not even let you into her home in fear you
might contaminate it and her children. Her children, your nieces and nephews.
Those sweet babies that you watched be birthed into this world, the ones you
held for the first couple years of their lives; those whose faces lit up when
they saw you coming…you are now cut off from.
And what about your best friend? The next best thing to your
sibling. She/he didn’t have to stay close to you like your brother or sister,
but chose to…and now will no longer
acknowledge you.
What about the man you married, the one your parents
approved of and the one you fell in love with over time. The one you learned to
work through things with. The one who was supposed to be there forever, you and
him. The father of your children. The one who knew you in a way no other had
ever known you. When he puts you out of the house and no longer acknowledges
you or your existence as a human, let alone the mother of his children.
Instead, he sends you away. Later you
hear, maybe weeks, maybe months, that he married another woman. This
other woman is now in your husband’s bed where you once laid. Cooking and
cleaning in the house you once lived. This other woman is now living your life,
the life that once was yours. And there is absolutely nothing you can do to change it. Thankfully, your children at least
have some food to eat and a place to sleep...for now. You hope that they are not
treated differently because they are now the children of someone with leprosy,
but you also know that that would be an exception to the rule.
What can you do?
Everything that your world was made of, everything that you
once knew….it’s all over.
And why is it over? Why can’t the people in your life just
walk with you though your condition, offering support and encouragement? Because
this is the religion, and the religion is the culture. You are now unclean,
obviously being punished by god for some sin you committed in your previous
life. So, even god has rejected you. You are a person with leprosy and are not to be associated with, lest others become contaminated by you and your sin.
For many, this is where it ends. No resolve, to resolution, no hope, no happy ending.
This is the reality of numerous people here. Sometimes we hear stories of women and men that
become no more than just that—stories. We read them with good intentions and
then move on to the next thing that pops up in our inbox, comes across our
screen, or notifies us of it’s importance. In our busyness (without even
realizing it) we gloss right over these realities as mere facts and sadly, even think of them as fiction at times. These are not stories, these are people. These are people who live the realities of these stories…every day. They
have faces, they have emotions, they have hearts, and they have spirits—all of
which have been so wounded. Let us slow down long enough to acknowledge the
stories we hear as more than stories, but the people whom these stories
represent. Let us acknowledge the humanity of it all, the rawness of emotion, and the reality of their reality. When these people become real to us, their
stories can impact our lives and change the way we see the world around us. And
hopefully, this change will move us to action in some way, shape, or form. And
may that action always begin with prayer.
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